What's True, Even in the In-Between

You can want change and still feel unsure how to begin

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Sometimes, when life gets too loud or too still, we forget what’s real. In the midst of wanting more, wanting to get things right or thinking about what’s next, we can get defeated. Stop knowing how to begin, how to move forward.

We forget what makes us feel like ourselves.
What we want.
What we already know.

So today I sat down and asked myself:
What’s still true?

Not what I wish were true.
Not a five-year plan or a bold reinvention strategy.

Just what’s here, now. The undercurrent. The truth that holds, even in limbo.

Here’s what came out unedited:

• I love meeting new people.

• I love ideas.

• I love summer nights outside under string lights anywhere with a glass of wine.

• I love being alone.

• I love silence.

• I crave inspiration, even when I don’t have any.

• Somewhere deep in me, I know things won’t always be this way and that change is always possible.

• I love the goosebumps I get looking at impressionist paintings.

• I care deeply about other people.

• I know my day job needs to change and morph into something bigger. And I know someday it will.

• I crave novelty, I need to be in new places.

• I love my mom with my whole heart. Supporting her in her eighth decade of life is really, really hard, but I’ll never regret it.

• There are people in my life who no longer make it bigger or better, but they’re still there, for now.

• I can want things to change, even when they haven’t yet.

• I feel completely whole in new countries, different cultures, and old cities steeped in history even if I can’t get there right now.

• I don’t have it all figured out. But I also know that I can.

• I am never satisfied, but not from an ungrateful place. From a hunger to feed my soul.

• I get bored easily. I know curiosity will save me.

• I know my values even if I can’t live a life fully aligned with them, yet.

• I know that awe is the real stuff of life, holy, grounding and capable of changing everything.

And this, all of this, will make everything else possible.

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Maybe that’s the place to begin again.
Not with a reinvention. Not with a plan.
Just with what’s true.

Try it, if you want to.
Ask yourself:
What’s true for me , even now?

Let that be your compass.
Let that be the spark.